ok.. i need you guys to be as awesome as possible ok. hahah.. be nice to actually clickyclick on my new nuffnang okeh.. untuk saya cari makan. huhu.. everytime u people drop yourself here, please clickyclick those thing aite. EVERYTIME, ok? i'll love you people more. ahaha..
a tribute to the pain in the arse.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009 9:01 PM
why do you have to treat her like shyt? why are you so freaking arrogant. why are you acting vice versa infront of others and not us. why do you resembles your senior so much till i hate you as much. why were you so different back then. why were you so selfish now. why do you have to change. why does it has to be bad and not better. why do you do so when there's nothing that can make you do so. why are such a pain in the ass to us and not to them. you're effingly pissing me off. it made me cry inside.
dah masuk waktu.
8:31 PM
i'm bored. like seriously bored to the extend that i don't know what else to do. so i decided to blog. and what do i wanna blog about? don't know. pathetic it is.
facebook nothing to do. myspace boring. friendster dead. youtube on it now but what else can i do with it. bloghopping, tak banyak people update stuff. msn, ym, nobody to chat with, i'm just randomly google-ing for something. games, penat. handphone senyap. credit takde. tv tengah berita lagi. read the newspaper, so takpe. so blog it is. at least i can crap. haha.. and mengarut all i want. tak nak baca? tak ape. tak paksa. exits banyak. pilih je yg mane nak. :p
anak sedara aku nak sembahyang nih. yg tadi tadi punye tak buat pon. tetiba isyak baru nak buat. hahaha.. hampeh gila. dua orang nak sembahyang. yg no1 & no2. tetiba menghilang plak. tadi mintak tolong aku.[i repeat, mintak tolong aku..] hehehe. see.. i ain't bad. :) now dah menghilang. keh8..
sembahyang dalam bilik. alamatnya sembahyang tonggang-tonggek depan tv. wakaka.. and yg pasti akan di ganggu niece no4. lol. lantak korang lah. aku dulu masa kecik2 suka sembahyang dengan arwah nenek. sampai tergelak2 orang tua tu dibuat aku. tak kusyu' sembahyang dia. hehe.. first telekung aku dari dia. :) masa tu excited bukan main lagi. hehe.. rindu kat dia.. :(
clock's ticking.
12:41 PM
one second you made me smile, the other seconds you took it away from me. no negotiation to be made.
to my beloved darlings. this thing or shall i say post is specially for you people. i need you guys to stay with me as much i want to stay with you guys. you know la i la kan paling bermasalah among all of us. which is so sad. fell like macam kene sial ok. hmm.. but you guys have always been here with me. thank you so much.
we've gone through so much. dari form 1 till now and some of you from primary and for you my BestFriend, since standard one. we've known each other for so long. we kenal each other too good. sometimes. maybe. you guys don't know how much you guys meant to me.
leyla: you've always been by myside dari dulu. through thick and thin. i know i degil. you give me so much of good advices. i do dengar. but maybe not all la. i know your intention baik. but try putting yourself in my shoes. [re: what we spoke about just now.] it's easier said than done. i faham sangat. what you say is all true. it made me thing was i the one who's so dumb. no matter what, you know i'll always turn to you despite the critics yg kadang-kadang hurt me. but that's what friends are for. i terima dengan hati terbuka. you know me so well that u understand me inside out. thank you for everything. just bear with me k. love you.
ameera: despite whatever has happened, you're a good listener. ok ok. i might not agree with you with a few things but i'm trying to put that aside, so i can concentrate more on your good side. memang kadang i pissed gila kat you. no doubt. but i malas nak gaduh gaduh. you kenal i macam mana. slagi org tak buat i, i takde masa nak cari gado dengan orang. but yeah, looking at the good side la, you've helped me a lot. especially things that concern money. thank you for it and for lending your ears.
adila:you.. maybe i ain't that close to you nowadays kan since we jarang jumpa and all. but you're one of the pieces of puzzle that completes my life. we're very close back in form 3. coz of tuition and all. yeah, masa tu pun ada jugak kan, i melepaskan whatever i feel kadang2. we shared some stuff la back then kan. the boys. the tuition. hahaha.. it was great knowing you. and i love you. please be strong with this jian thing ok.
ashikin: you.. minah tak kesah. :) yeah. disebabkan perangai you yg always tak kisah, it's a bit hard to tell you stuff and ask your opinion or something. but deep inside, i know you're nice and you do care. it's just that you don't know how to express it. maybe? [btol la kot kan.] i'm much closer to you masa form 1 & form 2. and all those pet sis thingy, then bila form 2 we're the monitor and assistant and that time juga ada itu dua orang buat practical. hahah.. ouh, and i still remember, you're the one who come up with that 'poyo' word. :p dulu i benci gila kat you masa skola rendah. u nampak snobbish gila. ahhaha.. now look at us. best friends. haha.. i'm sorry. the feeling was just there back then. and thanks jadi our atm. hehehe.. yes2, i owe you too. hahah..
amelia: i memang tak close dengan you. dari dulu. bila form 2 je baru we start rapat. at first, memang i thought u sombong. budak pandai la katakan. hurmm.. but for your age. you're good. you're too matured la sayang. malu je kitorang yang by right be your senior. hehehe.. you are one of those person yg pandai gila bagi advice. especially now, when you started to read my blog. i know i kadang-kadang emo sangat. but this is where i spill almost everything. thanks for everything. and the money part too. please bear with me.
ilianna: ok. ili. we're damn close masa darjah 6. remember? hantu gila kat n'sync. and you gave me blue's cassete. justin timberlake punye doll tu. it was sweet of you. mambe i tak sempat share stuff with you, but my life revolves around you guys jugak. so, even if i tak cakap or denagr sendiri dari you, one day, sure akan tau jugak even from someone else. dengan you pon i pernah tak suka sekejap. it was just a sudden feeling. that was back in form 1. now look. we're best friends & i love you. i pun owe you jugak. i owe u lot dear.
saf & pitos: it's been awhile since i last see you both. tak sempat nak share a lot of stuff but you guys have always been in my heart. you both rock la. hehe.. sorry i didn't have much things to say to you both but i know you care.
takshi: yes you pun i'm not that close either. only back in 2006 je we have some stupid things happened kan. but yeah. still sayang you like how i sayang the rest. you were the first person tegur i masa in form 1. we were partners for a week? is it? heheh.. :)
i know i may not be the perfect friend you guys. but i'll be the best for you guys la. i'm at the point of you know the tough stage of my life. probably it's just me who'll go through this thing. i don't know.
babipigkhinzir.
8:18 PM
whatever fucker of all hell. nag to me all you want. i'm already dead. telinga aku dah kebal ok dengar kau membebel macam sial tu. seriously. i had enough with you. aku bukan kuli batak kau babi!
i'm sorry. just bear with me for this time. this is my emo side.
izinkanku pergi sebelum dirimu.
4:19 PM
you're my first. please be the last. you're my strength. please be strong. you're my world. please don't vanish. you're my everything. please let it be.
till death do us part.
cry me a river.
2:57 AM
see those things. me no likey those thing. haha.. itu namanya bawang merah. yes, red onions you call it in english. and yes, it's not a thing but it's a type of vegetables? not fruit kan? hahah..
bukan tak suka ape. it made me cry la. the momment you get in contact with this 'thing', you'll surely cry la. mata jadi pedih je. then air mata pun membasahi pipiku yg comel. [hish.. perasan gila nak mati.. hahaha.. ]
not only that. bawang ni tau jelah. bau dia kan. sangat kuat and i would say, agak tak best la bau dia kan. i'd rather membau durian. ee.. sedapnye durian. lama tak makan. sesape nak bagi? hehe.. dapat sebijik dua, ok lah. nanti banyak-banyak, panas plak la kan badan. hahaha..
erm, ok. kembali ke topik asal. bawang. samapi sekarang aku tak suka makan bawang. yes. tak suka sangat. whatever onions yg ada dalam makanan, you know those cut ones, big ones, i'll surely make some deco out of it at the side of my plate. tak pon, bagi kat orang. kalau zaman skola dulu, dilajadi mangsa. hahaha.. semua bawang letak dalam pinggan dia. tak pun terus suap masuk mulut dia. haha..
sebab aku tak suka bawang was because of the smell. sumpah that was the reason. sebab dulu, masa kecik-kecik, tak reti tuang air sendiri. masa tu around 3 tahun kot. so, suruh la mak buatkan. mak masa tu sedang memasak. so, obviously, bila masak pakai bawang kan. so her tangan ada bau bawang. then dia pegang cawan. then isi air. then bagi kat aku. bau cawan tu tak best langsung. and masa tu aku tak tau nape. aku tanyalah bau ape ni. she said bawang. sejak tu, a big no to bawang. i only makan bila bawang itu tiada dalam penglihatan pancaindera aku.
tapi.. aku sangat bangga nak bagitau that, bila aku masak, aku pakai banyak bawang. baru makan best. walaupun pastu bau tangan agak tak best ah kan. but there's always soap and lotion ok. tapi ada petua. scrub your hands yg ada bau bawang tu dengan stainless-stells punye benda. eg: sudu, teko or etc etc. ak. bye. selamat mencuba & terima kasih kerana baca post mengarut ni.
stop hurting me. it hurts.
Sunday, January 25, 2009 8:52 PM
i think i'm almost done with my new blogskin? just a little touch up here and there to make it perfect. comprehende? ok good. anyway, credits to viv teoh la, ok? no. no. not coz she do the blogskin. it's coz she help me apply the blogskin. hahaha..
erm, damn. dada ku sakit. no. bukan pedih hulu hati. in english it's call heart burn. sakit rasa macam tulang rusuk kiri bertemu tulang rusuk kanan. [i know. i know. if it's really that, it'll be lagi sakit gila babi.] hahah.. it's just sakit la. rasa macam kene tumbuk pun ada. haih. why ah? nak letak ubat but tak tau ubat ape. kamu ada idea?
erm, dalam dua hari ini aku rasa tension sangat. ntah. mane tau. ada tanya aku balik. but it's just is la. with mommy been nagging on stuffs that tak penting pun. haih.
bersabar, will you?
Saturday, January 24, 2009 6:31 AM
-page under construction-
one now one nescafe.
2:13 AM
haven't been sleeping pada waktu yg betol. or shall i say at normal hour. i slept at odd hours tau tak. macam some sort of owl or something.. hahah.. that's why i need to start study. gah! so that my time management will be superb? maybe.
dah 2 hari dah. prolly today is the third day. orang lain bangun nak pergi kerja nak pergi sekolah nak pergi menoreh nak pergi pasar nak pergi uni nak pergi tadika nak pergi turun ke laut & to wherever lagi la, aku baru nakkkk... erm, TIDO. gila baiii time tido aku. and that clearly means i slept at 6am or later. sejenis penyakit kah itu? haha..
and i have been sleeping downstairs. and its no good people. sebab.. banyak gangguan pada waktu aku baru nak pejamkan mata. the budak2, the brother & the lecture. yes, lecture from, you know who. hahaha..
pagi ni je, baru sejam aku lelap kot, i heard this- thira tlg buat nescafe. i nak klua dah ni. [sebab aku sorang je kat situ walaupon ketiduran.. :p ] dan automatically kaki aku melangkah ke dapur. ntah nescafe ape yg aku buat pon tatau. hahaha.. maybe ok la tu. aku buat sambil mata pejam-pejam weyh. sangat berat untuk dibuka. tapi abg aku tak ckp pape pon. lagi sedap agaknye. mane tau ada air liur basi meleleh.. hahah.. eewww.. aku sendiri geli.
tapi nescafe aku bersusu.. lemak manis disukai ramai..
kerna terpaksa, aku melangkah pergi.
12:58 AM
nak lepas geram ni. huhu.. i dunno why would i wanna blog about something that has taken place a week ago. but i just want to. so shut up. haha..
ok2.. she im'd. suddenly gila. was it good or was it bad. i couldn't care more. replied. very cold indeed. still trying to be nice. but i just couldn't. i'm sorry.
yunk.. u said i'm still the adik, but then, ignorance is what i felt since the very moment you found her. ok. you apologised. and as always, me being me. you're forgiven for god knows for kali yg ke-berapa.
me being me, i tak sampai hati to feel mad at you fr so long. but yet, i still nak geram kat you. coz of? entah. [some people might just shoot me in the head right now. sheesh.. ]
i miss you.
this, that & those.
Thursday, January 22, 2009 2:27 AM
erm, aku ingat hari ni hari jumaat. hahaha.. sedih. macam tak tau pasal dunia luar padahal it just slipped my mind for less than 5minutes. i went to seksyen 14. went to watsons, then to a tailor who doesn't bukak her freaking kedai when she said come and collect your altered pants today & to vie onn beli makanan kucing & hamster. it was lunch time. macam biasalah kan. jam gila. ramai manusia. banyak kereta. dan hari yg panas. kombinasi yg cukup tak happening. hahah..
dalam aku perhati-perhati manusia sekalian mungkin diantaranya kamu, i realised something. populasi wanita melebihi populasi lelaki. no offence. ok that's a fact. i know i know. why ah? and somehow, this is the reason kenapa aku rasa hari ni hari jumaat. sebab aku ingat jantina bertentangan dengan aku tu semua gi sembahyang jumaat. haha..
nampak lelaki yg sikit sangat. tapi ada yg hot. eye-candy i shall say. :) bukan gatal setakat you know, cuci-cuci mata. penat & bosan gak kan tgk kaum sejenis je. apa barang. hahah..
thinking of you and how much it really means to me.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 5:51 PM
kamu muncul dalam tido lagi. is that a good thing or not? i myself is unsure of it but hey, i wpold like to take it as a good one.. hahaha.. aku rindu kamu jadi kamu munculkan diri dalam tido ku. freaky but impressive i should say. u melt me down. hah.. how's that. :)
anyway, gtg. raining. hahah.. shall shut everything down. but not myself. :p gila skema ayat aku kali ni. poyo je. anyway, still waiting. :)
give it a thought.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 2:09 AM
what would you do if you know you'll lose the most precious thing or person in your life?
Monday, January 19, 2009 10:46 PM
sorry for hurting you sorry for being so dumb sorry for making things complicated sorry for not wanting things to be the way it should be sorry for all the mistakes that've took place sorry for not letting you go
aku ingin menyelamimu.
10:42 PM
Kalau boleh, aku ingin menyelami bola matamu yang menyimpan lubuk terdalam. Di sana, pada segenap masa lalu itu aku ingin menyemai buahnya
Kalau boleh, aku ingin menyelami sekali lagi lalu sekali lagi di waktu yang berbeda. Tidak ada yang sungguh usai pada sebuah kisah seperti juga tak ada yang beda suka dan luka
Diam-diam kau ciptakan cahaya ditubuhmu yang dilelapkan embun sampai matahari lupa. Telah kuciptakan sebuah sampan untuk berlabuh pada tubuhmu dari rusukku
Kalau boleh…
~oleh: indrian koto
my river runs to thee.
2:10 PM
MY river runs to thee: Blue sea, wilt welcome me? My river waits reply. Oh sea, look graciously! I ’ll fetch thee brooks
From spotted nooks,— Say, sea, Take me!
by: emily dickinson
i carry your heart with me [i carry it in my heart]
dah buta rabun pula. sampai bila? sampai aku tiada. mungkin.
tidur aku belum lena untuk dibuai mimpi indah.
1:18 AM
kamu memang manusia keji. sekeji geram aku terhapad kamu. ish.. aku cuba persetankan segalanya tapi tidak mampu. ada ke patut kamu kejut aku dari tido, semata-mata untuk menanyakan benda itu di mana. dah la bendatu- 1. kamu yg patot buat benda tu. 2. kamu boleh tanya org lain. 3. buka la mata. sangat benci.
terima kasih & sedikit cenderahati?
Friday, January 16, 2009 10:35 PM
okay. got up agak pagi hari ni. slept like never slept before last night and i sleep quite early. ahaha.. not the usual me. but it's ok.
went out with 2 orang babes. leyla & ameera. sangat happy saya. ok ok. we went to mid valley. went off with ameera's mom. [thanks aunty. :) ] we went to bangsar first then only off to mid valley.
first thing first- what ah? we go buy movie tickets. huhu.. for me and ameera la coz leyla have to rush back to college. ada replacement class at 3.. tgh2 pilih movie saw my senior or is it more to she saw us? [hmm..?] hahah.. but yeah. it was firdy and her friend that happens to be very friendly. [good job lah firdy. :) ] then okay. it's all set that we'll be watching they wait. [padahal nak ajak ameera watch maut or histeria.] dia punyelah taknak. coz it's a MALAY movie. i tampar you baru tau. i don't care. i'll drag you to watch one, one day.just wait. tak mati ah support malay movies. :p
ok. pastu pergi makan. makan dekat little penang. little penang ada makanan sedap. sedap sehingga perut kami penuh. little penang juga memberikan harga yg berpatutan. jadi kami mampu bayar sebab kami hanya student. hahaha.. jadi mood kami ialah, gendang gendut, tali kecapi, kenyang perut, suka hati.. huhuhu.. well, i ordered siamese laksa something, ameera ordered prawn mee something and leyla's was lam mee something.. *jenuh aku pikir nama penuh makanan tu* hahah.. the bill was only $in the budget.
ok perut kenyang kan, jalan la. so that the food akan dihadam. huhu.. jalan dan jalan dan lagi jalan. leyla was looking for a belt. the fancy type one. so yeah. she saw one, but macam tak worth to be bought there and then. so she said, she'll drag the mother. [well done, leyla! haha..] masuk reject shop. ouh, ini baru dibuka ye di lembah tengah tersebut. haha.. agak basar. sama tingkat dgn F.O.S.. agak bagus strategi mereka. haha.. banyak choice jugak. bagus-bagus.. [haih.. bagi free publicity la plak utk RS nih..] then jalan sampai ujung dunia *ujung mid valley tu*.. kire bertentangan dgn RS la, pegi FOS. konon nak cari bebaju yg berkenan. skali yg beli orang lain. ameera. beli baju tido. haih. hahha..
lepas u jalan-jalan jadi cam-whore. hahaha.. amik gambar kat those nice chinese deco. pastu nak amik gambar bertiga asyik terlepas. ameera said, ask someone la. seperti bidadari yg diturunkan ke bumi oleh tuhan, aku nampak budak assunta. haha.. dan tak semena-mena aku jerit nama dia- ADE. hahaha.. dia agak terkejut dan pelik. aku juga sebenarnya. hahah.. ok. dia amik gambar. dia masih nampak kaget. haha.. sorry. lembah tengah dan assunta tak boleh dipisahkan? mungkin. aku jumpa adik ko lady yaya! hahaha..
ok. time to send leyla back to college. we asked our driver to send her. alaa.. u know those drivers who wears white shirt in a red-white or green or yellow coloured cars.. yeah.. dia lah antar leyla balik college. :) jadi kami pon terus berjalan naik ke tingkat 3 bangunan lembah tengah tersebut. yes.. ke tingkat yg ada 18 panggung tuh. :p erm, beli pop-corn juga air coke. jumpa budak assunta. dia sudah abis spm. mesti dia bahagia. tapi bosan duduk rumah. jadi kerja kat kaunter makanan GSC. bagus. tabik. dia junior saya. nama dia amalina. hehehe.. ingat dapat discount. tapi maaf, GSC itu bukan milik dia. hehehe..
ok tiket 3.45pm. dalam panggung hanya duduk. dan makan juga minum. ok. movie mula. erm, aku geram dgn orang belakang aku. boleh plak goyang-goyang kaki. langgar kerusi aku. nasib baik la kan mood ketika itu agak baik & tak nak sound orang sesuka hati. ok aku biarkan. tonton lagi. boleh plak ada yg berdengkur. adoi. mangkok betol. tau lah panggung tu sejuk dan gelap. memang port sedap untuk tidur walaupon hanya dalam keadaan duduk. mula-mula aku ingat orang belakang aku tu sebab kerusi aku tak gegar-gegar dah. suruh ameera check. cheehh.. rupanye orang belakang dia. and the best part was- SHE'S a freaking girl. dengkur kuat giler. not to say girls can't snore but in public loudly?? impressive lah kot. hahah.. *fakta sampingan: it turned out that i've watched that movie before. oh my god. tapi nasib baik aku tak ingat cerita itu bagaimana kerana tak fokus pon masa mula-mula tengok dulu. [tengok online free.. hahah..]
ok. movie tamat. jalan2. ameera nak makan lagi. agak hebat perut dia. hahah.. tengah jalan-jalan boleh plak nampak those permainan yg gerak2 yg you can ride on it tu. yeah it was a car with a koala bear there. she got all excited dan aku plak get all embarassed.. hahah.. aku duduk jauh-jauh. malu siot. dia pergi ambik gambar binatang tersebut. hahah.. ok. dia kata nak pergi rumah ili pulang barang but tak jadi. so off we went to stuff her tummy with more food. went to long john's something la. hahaha.. makan makanan ala2 barat. huhu..
ok kemudian aku pergi memory lane. beli card dia. hadiah kene tunggu.. hehehe.. budget lari. but your present is already in mind. i know you want it. :) card tu comel. secomel aku & dia. agagaga.. lepas memory lane, kami ke epal besar. yg ada jual benda makan bulat-bulat tu. ada sesetengah berlubang dan ada sesetengah bulat sepenuhnya tu. haa.. aku beli setengah dozen. untuk the mother. huhu.. and the kids. :)
sekarang balik. jalan lenggang lenggok ouh. tak sedar nak kejar bas today. haha.. sekali nampak bas baru berhenti. di dalm kasut heels, berlari aku dan ameera menerjah bas. hahah.. nasib sempat dowh. ok.. tu je.
thanks for the wonderful afternoon and evening. :) shall do it more often. it feels good to see you both.
photos later to be uploaded.
***
ok. sudah di rumah. sangat penat. kesakitan melanda kepala aku. tak terhingga sebenarnya. erm, mereka buat hal pula. terasa ingin marah semua. maaf.
tu lah.. cakap orang tua-tua tak nak dengar. orang tua-tua selalu cakap yg kalau kita terlampau bersuka-suka, nanti berduka. selalu-selalu bergalak, nanti melalak. ada kebenarannya. ok lah. till then selamat tinggal.
renung-renung, fikir-fikir.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 3:54 PM
kamu tau apa itu rimas? kamu faham maksud rimas? rimas adalah satu perkataan yg menggambarkan betapa tidak tahannya seseorang terhadap sesuatu benda atau keadaan. boleh terjadi kepada sesiapa sahaja tidak kira masa atau tempat.
when will things change? when will i stop being blamed? things happened for a reason. a reason that's left for us to find.
kadang-kadang, rasa nak duduk diam-diam, sorang-sorang kat tempat-tempat yg tenang mcam syurga. hanya perlu ada orang yg kita perlukan. [kawan-kawan & sayang-sayang. maybe.] kadang-kadang, rasa nak hidup dengan ramai orang. tapi semua buat haluan masing-masing. hanya bercakap bila perlu. kadang-kadang, rasa nak hidup dengan semua orang, gelak-gelak, cakap-cakap tanpa had, tanpa batasan. hanya perlu kegembiraan, kebahagian tanpa sebarang konflik.
saya penat. saya perlu rehat. saya butuh waktu. saya juga butuh kekuatan. tapi bagaimana?
Drinks malas ouh nak pikir. i drink almost evrything. :)
Soda buka mata dan pandang ke atas. lol.
Book i read but no specification. thank you.
Flower whatever that is nice. the colour of the flower that matters to me even if its fugly looking flower..
DO YOU
Color your hair? re-dyed with black.
Twirl your hair? yup.
Have tattoo? does fake ones count?
Have Piercings? yesh.
Cheat on tests/homework? sudah semestinya. maha hebat aku dulu. :D
Drink/Smoke? all i can say is pernah.
Like roller coasters? not all.
Wish you could live somewhere else? sangat-sangat.
Want more piercings? yesh. tapi ada tak yg langsung takde rasa?
Like cleaning? have to. tapi gila bapak malas.
Write in cursive or print? hahaha.. depending on what i have to write.
Own a web cam? nope.
Know how to drive? yesh. tapi tak brani bawa org bersama. ngeh2. [license, where are you. i need one.]
Own a cell phone? the heart & soul kot? not so la but thats the only gadget that connects me to dia.
Ever get off the damn computer? uhuh..
HAVE U EVER
Been in a fist fight? uhuh uhuh..
Considered a life of crime? gahhh! macam cool gila.
Considered being a hooker? while i was in my sane state or vice versa?
Lied to someone? tipu la kalau cakap tak penah kan.
Been in love? loveyouloveyouloveyou ;)
Made out with JUST a friend? ermmmm..
Been in lust? hahahaha.. loveyouloveyouloveyou..
Used someone saya tidak maha kejam.
Been used? pernah. suro dia pegi mati, ok?
Been cheated on? yes. can't recall by whom.
Kicked someone in the nuts? hehe.. tak.
Stolen anything? yes. :) saya curi ini- <3
CURRENTS
Held a gun senapang penah ah. my dad's.
Current clothing shorts and a top.
Current mood bahagia. i guess.
Current taste gatal&horny. bahh!
What you currently smell like body shop white mask.
Current hair loving it.
Current thing I ought to be doing dinner.
Current cd in stereo none.
Last book you read cant recall. padahal baru jek baca. adoi.
Last movie you saw ape ek? damn btol saya ni. pelupa kah?
Last thing you ate ice-cream. yummy.. hhmmph!
Last person you talked to on the phone **** shit i miss you already. sebulan lebeyh okeh tak ckp dgn kamu.
Do drugs? no.
Believe there is life on other planets? mungkin?
Remember your first love? yesh. loveyouloveyouloveyou..
Still love him/her? yesh. loveyouloveyouloveyou..
Read the newspaper? bila rasa saya perlu. other than that, there's always the news. :)
maha kagum.
4:57 PM
kamu memang ternyata hebat. tapi tidak tau dari segi ape. tapi... THANK YOU COZ YOU'VE MADE MY DAY! :)
lovemelovemenot.
2:04 PM
kamu 'mandrem' aku ke? :( tahniah sebab berjaya membuatkan aku rasa begini. haih. hebat penangan kamu. penangan aku juga hebat tapi hanya untuk seketika. tapi penangan kamu? hmm.. entahla. kamu juga berjaya datang dalam mimpi aku. ahh.. aku ingin kembali ke saat itu. boleh kah? maaf.. otak tiba-tiba ligat mencari memori dengan kamu. aku tak mampu nak bendung. kerana aku juga teringin mengenangnya kembali. tolong aku untuk kali yg terakhir. tolong?
bosanboringtiadakerja.
Monday, January 12, 2009 10:02 PM
instruction : 13 people you can think of right off the top of your head.
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people...
This is a lot more fun if you actually randomly list the names first...No Cheating!!!
Have you ever seen 4 cry?
yes. But when was that ah?
Would 11 and 2 make a good couple?
the very first thing that would happen is---- dila lariiiii...
Are you good friends with 13?
ooohhh.. more. Hahaha..
Do you think 5 is cute?
better if I don’t answer this. :p
Something about number 1?
the world=her? make sense?
How did you meet 8?
masa dia suka jaga pagar sekolah sebab dia takde keje.
What's 7's favorite color?
purple? Kan ili??
What would you do if 6 just confessed that they liked you?
hahaha.. never kot? Tak pernah terlintas langsung. Hahah.. acap2..
Fact about 9?
gila kuat cakap ouh dia. Hahah..
What does 1 do for a living?
being herself? Coz I know, not everyone does..
Would you ever live with 12?
boleh la. Tapi dia sangat pandai. Bila dia belajar takleh kacau. Nanti kene maki. Taknak ah. :p
Is 2 single?
definitely not? Dia ada J la k. :p
Where does 7 live?
nanti I bawak la tunjuk. :p
What do you think about 2?
diaaaa.. erm, ntah ah...
Whats the worst and best thing about 5?
The worst thing – dia tidak berperangai seperti org yg dah berumur. The best – dia sangat suke kucing sehingga boyf dia juga dia panggil kucing. :p
Who is 11 going out with?
erm, as far as I’m concern, no one. Tapi tak tau ah…
What do you like about number 3?
she cheers me sebab perangai dun bother dia tu melampau sgt sampai rasa kelakar sangat..
we're not those kids anymore.
9:05 PM
tolong. kami bukan budak-budak itu lagi. kami ada hidup. kami juga ada hala tuju. hello.. kamu dengar tak? jangan paksa. kami cuba dengar tapi.. hmmmph.. remuk!
4:14 PM
tangan menggeletar. kaki sejok. apakah tandanya? hhmmmph. lost inmy emotion. bye.
ketagihantahapmelampau.
3:41 PM
my only drugs that i still stick to till now.
fullofshitcrap&stuffsihatefornow.
2:49 PM
i wish i could hear your voice for the very one last time. i wish i could say what i've always thought of. i wish i could be strong to let you go. i wish i could turn back time.
bila kegagahan tu dtg, jadi macam ni. tak sangka aku seberani itu. takpe. kalau taknak tolong cakap. mungkin aku tak patut seberani itu. mungkin aku patut tidak mempedulikan semua itu. rasa macam bodoh sekarang. takut, cuak, risau, menyesal. ape lagi perasaan negative yg boleh dtg bile kita buat kesalahan? saya nak muntah. tiba2 pening dtg. takde masalah cari masalah. inilah hidup. nak buat macam mana. ok itu saja. bye.
4th post of the day. =.='
4:59 AM
okeh. yes aku gila. so what?shit. mata ini masih tidak mahu ditutup. so here i am posting my 4th post for the day in less than 1 hour. gila bapak. 4 post in less than one hour. ahh.. blog sape. i kan. :)
start la the countdown for my birthday eh. so people. prepare yourself k? nak present banyak-banyak. [hmmmphh.. lame nye aku cakap pasal birthday sendiri on public. dah ah getting older. if getting younger takpe jugak.]
well-well i ada jugak keinginan. muahahaha.. yelah, sementara dalam TEEN era ni. next year the age will get so ugly. PULUH. yiakkks.. 20. huduh. [eventhough i will always be a teenager despite the digit getting ugly-err years by years lah kan. boohhoo..
here goes my so-called-wishlist: 1. dia :) 2. perfumes. lots of it. [no specification. janji wangi okeh. :p] 3. camera. any model would do janji bukan yg cikai punye ah. so long i can have it for myself. 4. lepak lama-lama dengan the babes tersayang:-leyla, dila, shikin, melia, ili, takshi, pitos, saf.. rindu. 5. handbags. been eyeeing[is that how u spell it??] on nine west punye and coach's. :D 6. a vacation. somewhere yg ada air terjun or pantai. :) 7. a freaking new phone. i'm currently using a damn lama punye nokia phone. :( 8. car licence & a freaking car too. 9. secret recipe's chocolate indulgence, almond white chocolate & any kind of cheesecakes. 10. a suprise.
ok dah. tolong realisasikan 5 out of 10, boleh? not too much to ask kan? hehehe..hahaha.. i've given some hint.
vacation where, anywhere.. yg ada beaches is the best tambah kalau dengan dia.
tolong anyone? hhmmmph.
cantik kan? this was taken in kemaman. rindu.
bolehkah?
4:33 AM
saya terlampau rindu untuk merendamkan tubuh ini ke dalam air yg mengalir dr puncak bukit itu. yer air terjun yg akhirnye membentuk sungai yg cantik jika tidak dicemar manusia yg tiada otak tu. hmm.. sudah agak lame tidak ke kawasan air terjun. ada sesiapa mahu pergi dan saya boleh tumpang dua kaki? hehe.. erm, babe jom pegi. huhu.. lepak sambil mandi2 picnic, sure fun kan. hmm.. tapi bila. anda semua sangat sibuk. hanya tinggal saya saje.
shitheads&crap.
4:19 AM
it's freaking 4.15am, and i'm still up. can't sleep. baring baring macam orang bodoh tapi mata macam siot tak nak tutup. shit.
nyamok gila babi banyak.
darah likat mengalir dan seekor nyamok pon mati. erm, kenape banyak sangat darah ni? tak perasan langsung.
hhmmph..
lagi?
Friday, January 9, 2009 4:04 PM
erm, i'm getting bored with my blogskin. gila bapak lame tak tukar. dah ah pakai template biasa je. huhu.. will change soon. sebab aku dah bosan giler ouh dgn template nih.. just wait and see yer.. :)
when the time comes again.
Sunday, January 4, 2009 1:35 AM
routine untuk tahun yg kedua kalinye. huhu.. sebab kalau dulu2, aku turut melakukannya untuk diriku sendiri, tapi kini tak. balut buku. buat jadual waktu. tulis nama. etc2. untuk anak2 sedara aku. gosh. ingat dah abes skola tak perlu aku buat semua itu. haha.. i was totally wrong. lol. oh oh and prolly tahun ini aku akan bakal menyusun buku je. hahah.. kamu pernah merasainye kan? agak tidak seronok yer. :) what else?? bila skola juga bermula, aku juga perlu sebok sama. ahhh.. agak tidak menarik. dah tambah lagi seorang yg bakal menjejakkan kaki ke alam persekolahan. huhu.. kalau dulu 2 kini 3. dan kalau dulu di rumah ada 3 untuk dilayan keletahnye, kini hanya 2. feewww.. big relief there. hahah.. tidokan kesemuanya, selamat. *bigsmile* adakah semudah itu?? i dunno. wait and see.. ahhh.. agak cepat masa berlalu. dah pon 4 hari, 2009 mengucapkan hai pada dunia. skola juga kini bakal dibuka. huhu.. welcome back to school anak2 kecil! :)
ber-tig-tag lagi.
Saturday, January 3, 2009 5:46 PM
Rules & Regulations: 1.Do not copy answers 2.The tag questions must be 100% the same 3.Tag people after doing tag 4.No tagging back
-How you know 1? from primary school then she went missing and met her back in 2006. school also. huhu..
-What would you do if you never met 2? dunno? nothing? :p
-What would you do if 3&4 dated you? never in a million years? haha.. coz up to now, i know i'm straight. thank you. :D
-Would 5 & 6 make a good couple? hahahah.. as far as i'm concern, both of them have the love of their life. lol.
-do you think 7 is attractive? she's a drama queen.. :p
-Do you know anything about 8’s family? her mother is an indonesian. kan soleha kan?? :/
-Tell me something about 9 she gila bab* pandai ok? omg. tension study dgn dia. :(
-What language does 2 speaks? bahasa melayu & bahasa inggeris. itu sahaja kan acap?? do u speak other language? :p
-Who is 3 going out with? :) the boyf, J. :p
-how old is 4? kami sebaya. :) 18. err.. no it's 2009, means 19? agak tua. :(
-5? oh.. dia tua. mungkin 21 thn ini. :)
-Who is 6 favourite singer? no idea.
-7 ? sadly.. i dunno..
-Is 8 single? definitely, not. hahaha..
-What is 9 last name? last name as in father's name? kamarudin? coz her nama agak panjang. huhu..
-Would you consider being in a relationship with 1? nope?? dia kawan saya. perempuan pulak tu. huhu..
-Which school does 2 go to? intec shah alam. buat architecture. [jealous! :p]
-What do you like about 3? dia sangat gila. jantung jati saya sampai mati. :)
Viv! i'm done with the tag. took me ages to do it. lol. haha.. :)
the new drug i'm hooked to.
3:22 PM
imy, ily, it's so hard untuk terus merindu.
12:42 AM
when all leave at once. phuuuhh.. tak mudah ok. can u imagine when all the happiness and not being alone feeling just vanish from your life in just a matter of seconds? yes. i'm feeling it. huhu.. for at least a month, we do things together for 24-7, makan minum, membuta, mengorat, merendek && macam2 M lg.. [mandi????.......hooo.. SEN-SI-TIVE] mengutuk juga bersama. haih, sekali hilang dari pandangan mata. kerana terpaksa mengikut kehendak alam. the last few days, kami hidangkan telinga kami dengan santapan lagu2 yg ntah dr zaman bile. layan jiwang ah kira. it's actually awesome. kitorang karaoke. kitorang bergalak2. juga melalak bersama. kitorang ke taman. kitorang enjoy makan KOTEOW. hahahaha.. inside joke. mind me. huhu.. kitorang enjoy bergayut di telefon. omg. agak pelik jika salah seorang dr kami tidak bergayut. paling kerap, F. huhu.. dan kami enjoy, mendengar dia bergayut pada odd hours. lol. kami enjoy, tido lambat & bangun agak awal.
bila saat yg tak dinanti semakin hampir, akan kami doa ia takkan kunjung tiba. and god answers our prayer. kerna ia memang tak kunjung tiba. sehingga saat & ketika & detik 1 januari. bagai ramalan yg sudah tersurat, ia muncul juga. namun, doa tetap terus meniti di dalam hati agar diperlewatkan setiap detik yg bergerak di muka jam. huhu..
dan detik itu sampai maka menitislah air dari mata. hahaha.. ayat tak leyh blah. yea lah. it just had to happen and it happened. go on with our lives. giving our best to the world and hoping the best comes to us anytime soon.
oh oh omg. lupa. the day we main hujan! haha.. konon nak gi petik buat dokong [mmg pon not konon.. padahal bukan tak nampak hari dah mendung, tapi peduli ape. omg, bnyk gila buah dokong. tinggi2.. then petik la. panjat2 tangga. siap klua kat longkang lagi. haha.. then it rain. omg lebat gila. sangat2 kamu tau. habis basah kami. tapi seronok. main ujan pula. sampai maghrib. huhu.. best best!