it's not wrong my dear.
but always know the limits.
only do what you're capable of.
it's not the matter of in or out.
it's not the matter of happiness & joy.
it's the matter of dignity & trust.
and the most important is the friendship.
u know that we can NEVER ever please each and everyone.
u know that we might look the same on the outside but inside?
yes, i know your nawaitu tu ikhlas.
yes, i know u wanna make us happy.
but.. what do you get in return?
N.O.T.H.I.N.G.
i'm saying this as a friend who still cares.

at times.. my mind just kept thinking abt you.
so stupid of me.
being hurt so many times by you pun i'm still here.
all your promises. all your sweet talks.
gosh. semua orang pun boleh cair lah.
i je bodoh nak mampos.
orang lain dah lame turned their backs on you. but me?
baik sangat ke i ni?
you need help, you come find me.
you bahagia, you happy.. ada you ingat kat i?
last time when we're damn close, there's so many things you said.
u wanna change. u wanna do this. u wanna do that.
but in the end? nothing?
i know i can NEVER change anyone completely.
i mean come on la kan. who the hell am i kan.
but yeah, all i can do is to try me freaking best.
like you yourself have said to me kan.
but just learn a lil bit more to actually learn to appreciate people more.
enough with your apologies.
i had enough of it.
coz you'll keep repeating your mistakes and i cant stand it no more.
i give you so many chances.
and i guess you're happier than ever before and you don't need me anymore.
i hope u'll always be happy with dia.
thank you & sorry for everything.

Labels: F.J.A.P

Yes2 I’m falling in love with her. Met her about a week ago. She’s so superb. Fantabulous I would say. Her glow is like a miracle. You can treasure her all day long. Yeah that’s her- MAHA 2008. Hahaha. Damn me. MAHA 2008 is like so gempaq. Banyak aku kene coretkan untuk menggambarkan semuanya. Banyak perubahan dowh. Yg kecik dah dibesarkan. Yg rosak dah dibetolkan. Yg malap dah diterangkan. Yg kurang dah dilebihkan. Yg susah dah disenangkan. Senang cerita semuanye telah di-upgrade. Not much picture taken as I was so freaking busy with work. But stakat berjalan cuci mata is a must. Wuhuu.. dan ramai jugak yg dah aku kenal. Jumpa la mamat2 gile macam bese.. the ladies there pun nice2 je org nye. My cousin ni kire lawa so case2 tukar no. terjadi setiap hari dan aku dilantik or shall I say melantik diri sendiri to jadi her PA. sampaikan aku blh hafal no. dia. :p

Hahaha..dr mamat jual kerepaek, yes u mr.zaily (tauke kerepek to be exact..:p), to mamat jual baju, yes2 mr.fendy aka comel.. (dia ni panggil aku chubby..adehh..)
itu contoh..padahal banyak lagi.. muahaha..
to mr.johan- mana baju thira?????? :p
mr.aidil cincau- to u, I owe u an apology k?
mr.shzwan kebab- asal susah sgt nak ngaku ms.siti tu gf u?malu2 plak.huhu..
mr.fruits- I miss calling u this.. hehe.. jom amik gmbr kite? :p to the gf, jgn marah k.. oh thanks sebab u n en.zaily ‘memalukan’ I eyh? Hahah.. (sungguh teruk diri ini dibuli mereka.. )
mr.niel- we’ll see u in jalan TAR k? selendang free for us taw? :p
mr.nadzrin- keselamatn org tu jaga dulu.. ok? Sebok jual muka plak dia.. hehe..
mr.faris- kopi secawan & teh sebotol? Hehe.. geram dgn mia. Buat jdi ank angkat leyh? :)
mr.yahya- awat kuang ajaq sgt? Dok ngelat ja keja hang? Hahaha.. hang comel tp tu ah, menipu no.1.. haha.. seram cheq tgk gf hang.. huhu..
mr.irfan- hang lg sorang.. comel2 cili api dowh.. hahha.. akak hang lawa.. hehe..
mr.2 from azmy- nama je jiran. nama je mengadap muka 2mggu, nama pun taktau xcept mr.eddy & mr.herman kot? anyway, thanks fr the B&B.. heh.

and to ALL THE AWESOME EXHIBITOR THERE yg dah bosan tgk muka kitorang test ur food or saje kacau dtg menyakat, THANK YOU & SORRY.. next time kitorang buat lagi.. :p

to org2 yg bagi old news paper tu, THANK YOU.. hahaha.. I know we sound so stupid masa g mintak surat kabar dgn korang but we’re really in need of it.. haha.. oh and also org yg slalu tukar duit dgn kitorg, THANKS. Dlm sesak2 tu ada gak duit tuka. Heh.

just to make u guys ingat kitorg, kitorg the only 2 girls yg sentiasa ada selendang/shawl with us where ever we go. The exact same one plak tu. Hahaha..

to sape2 yg kitorg lupa, SORRY?? Sape yg kempunan cempedak pun SORRY. Masa tak mengizinkan. Ingat masa 2 minggu dah ckup pjg tapi tak pun? Huhu..

other than that, this year’s MAHA mmg awesome. Makin banyak booth. And I took one day off to go round2. first stop was the ikan2 part. Sorry. Tak ingat wat is it call. We naik tram to go there. The tram is so cute. Need to pay 1 buck tapi since me and my cousin exhibitor kat situ, we got the ride free. Wuhuu.. then I borrowed my bro punye cam. Tgh nicely2 snap 2-3 picture, it died. As in the cam. When I asked,

Me: ada battery tak ni?
The bro: yeah boleh guna lagi.
Me: sure ke?
The bro: yes.

Cerdik. Luckily cousin I ada cam also cam phone. I teased him..

Me: ape ni snap 1 picture je dah die.
The bro: still can use. Tak guna off la.. (belum pun sempat aku off, cam tu dah off sendiri)
Me: the cam depleted la..
The bro: oh then I lupa change battery la tu. (he started laughing in his text..)

Pfffttt..ok well, Lepas tempat ikan, we went to Rumah Tradisional Malaysia. Cantek ah.. a few houses was build next to a kolam or lake I think? Haha.. but cantik la.masuk umah Pahang, and johor. Nice2..suke. hehe.. Then off we went to the Penternakan Area. But there’s also petting area, rodeo show, small zoo etc etc. mula2 g tgk kambing. My god! The smell. Sabar jelah. I dint know kambing lagi busuk dr lembu? *wonders* snap2 picture. Nak touch tapi tak berani. I dunno how ppl can remember its name. jamnapari la, saanen la, boer la and god knows what more. Hahaha.. then off to lembu2 punye area.. giler bapak besar lembu2 kat situ. Aku bukan jakun but really lembu2 kat situ besar2 dowh. Nak touch tapi takot kene sondol. Muahaha.. in the end aku sentuh jgk. Lembut je. Tu pun sbb the trainer is there. Hehe.. dia suro h masuk dalam kandang tu.

The trainer: meh la masuk. Amik gambar. Abg ada.
Me: takpelah bang. Saya tak cukup iman lagi. Heheh..
The trainer: dia ni manja la. Tak yah risau. (Punye la dia nak insist aku masuk)
Me: trime kasih la bang. Dr luar ni pun dah ckup. Lembu kat kg. sy tu pun sy tak berani dkt.
The trainer: hehe.. yg lg sorg ni? (Tanya cousin aku)
Cousin: saya bang? Bapak saya ada lembu dgn kambing yg diternak sebelah umah tapi sy penakot..

In the end we both tak masok. No way la. Aku belum idup lama. Org kata malang ni tak berbau. Haha..

Then jalan2 lagi. Besar sgt tmpt tu.masa tu kitorg tak tau mane petting area dia. Tnya2, jumpa jugak. Mula2 nampak ular taw2. Yg kuning2 tu. Tak ingat la nama dia. owh, albino nama dia..Ni kumpulan dr Melaka. A’Famosa punye group la. That 2 dude slambe2 je pegang ular tu macam takde pape. (I know I know keje diorg..) masa tu ada budak tgh bergambar dgn that ular. So both me & cousin wonder la kene bayar ke?

Cousin: bang.. bang.. kene bayar ke?
Trainer: Huh?
Cousin: nak amik gmbr kene bayar ke?
Trainer: sorry.. I dun understand.

Laaa..bukan melayu rupenye.hehe.. Muka macam melayu. Portugese maybe? U know la Melaka. So I interrupted. To hold the snake takyah bayar take picture with the snake pay 5 bucks. Mmg niat di hati ingin melakukanya krn nak buktikan kat seseorg yg kami kuat. Heheh.. dalam pada dok berkira2 tu, mamat seorg ni tak semena2 telah MELETAKKAN SEEKOR ULAR DI TENGKUK KU DAN MELILITKANNYA KE BADANKU DAN MENYURUH AKU MEMEGANG KEPALA ULAR YG LEMBIK TU. Aku pun ape lagi,jerit la kata aku tak ready. Take it away from me. But his evil smile says it all. Cousin pun amik gmbr. Tibe2 dtg mamat yg seorg lagi tu MENAMBAH SEEKOR LAGI ULAR KE ATAS KU. DILILIT DI PINGGANG..ahhhhh.. berat dowh. Ku tahan jua. Snap2 picture lagi. I was trembling like nobody’s business.. I wasn’t that scared but geli. U can feel the snake is crawling on ur body.. dah la berat giler. Korang bayangkan la sendiri.. aku menjadi tumpuan. Bloody asses tarainer. Hahaha.. then cousin aku punye turn. Bile ku tgk2 gmbr tu. Cuak dowh muka walaupun sengih tu besar. Heh.

To zoo kecik plak.. mula2 taknak masuk.. tapi intai2 dalam kandang yg tertutup tu, macam best jek. So kitorgmasuk lah. Bayar 2 hengget. Masuk2, ada parrot and few other birds, can’t recall. Ada kucing hutan. Ada ular yg halus2 tu. Ada rusa kot? Or was it something else? Erm, got peacock. Kitorg amik gambar with the parrot I think? Hehe.. the catch is there. Diorg amikkan gambar. Instant printing 5bucks. Suro amikkan pakai camera kitorg, dia buat huduh2.. kuang ajaq. Hahaha..

Pastu jalan2 tgk kuda, arnab. Unta. My god arnab dia comel2 sial. Geram. Boleh masuk and feed it. Pay 3bucks. Macam malas jek? So snap2 from the outside. Kuda pun same. U can ride ‘em. Tapi fr kids and fr those yg berat tak berlebihan ah. Hahaa.. tapi kuda2 tu sume cantek. Carriage horse tu pun cantek. It’s white in colour. Adorable giler. Heh.

Now balik time. Hehehe.. tak balik btol2 pown. Jalan lagi. lepak booth kerepek dgn miss ayu, mr.fruits, mr. zaily & extra2 yg lain… huhu.. mereka ni sume ada sawan.oleh kerana booth2 ni ada yg dari negeri2 lain mereka berentap suara..hahaha.. johor vs. s’ngor vs. kedah. Dan dr 3 booth ni jugak la kawan2 yg sewel aku kenal. Dan kadang tersesat ayat2 menyakat aku dalam jeritan mereka.. awat kuang ajaq sangat hangpa ni? Hahaha.. org ramai terpinga tapi mereka lagi suka.. mentang2 aku pompuan.. bukan main korang kenekan MISS THIRA.. kaki sakat diorg nih..huhu.. wtv la kan, i still miss you guys.. damn shit. Then off kitorang jalan2 lagi. Muahaha.. hajat dihati nak ke Hall A,B, & C tapi merendek tmpt lain sampai hari pun hujan. Heh. Dah ptg2 sket baru kitorg balik ke BOOTH D1248 in Hall D2..( booth kenangan) woot2.. yup2. keje ptg2 jek. Tp tu pun tetap bnyak gak menghilangkan diri. Hehe. K lah.. I guess this is it fr now perhaps? Heheh. Pictures later aite? Hehe.

P/S: I MISS YOU GUYS SO DAMN MUCH INCLUDING YOU MISS AYU.. hehehe..

P/S/S: TO MAHA ORGANIZERS, WHY DON’T YOU MAKE MAHA AN ANNUAL EVENT? HEHEH..

~Kiss on the stomach = "I'm ready"
~Kiss on the forehead = "I hope we're together forever"
~Kiss on the ear = "You're my everything"
~Kss on the cheek = "We're friends"
~Kiss on the hand = "I adore you"
~Kiss on the neck = "We belong together"
~Kiss on the shoulder = "I want only you"
~Kiss on the lips = "I love you"

~Holding hands = "we definately love each other"
~Slap on the butt = "that's mine, aite"
~Holding on tight = "i don't want to let go"
~looking into each other's eyes = "i sincerely love you"
~Playing with the hair = "tell me you love me"
~arms around the waist = "i love you too much to let you go"
~laughing while kissing = "i'm completely comfortable being with you"

thira says: boleh ke dipercayai? huhu.. zaman skrg u dun need to be together to do all this things kan? so dah macam tak real je? haha.. bukan nak kolot tapi btol pe.. what's important is your sincerity when u do all these things.. and what you really feel about it.. doesnt matter what other people say.. :) oh, and WHY u do it.. to just have fun or just to let someone know what's in your heart.. u decide..

I’m growing more matured by day.. I dun like it. I think? When I’m mad, I’m mute. Silence is the best medicine people said. For real? Entahla. Tapi kadang2 ia cukup memeritkan. Responsibilities. Sedikit sebanyak ini la sebab yer aku menjadi lebih matang. Ahh.. entahla. Susah untuk diperkatakan. Ingin saje aku lembarkan cerita yer dr A sampai Z disini. Tapi untuk ape aku mengaibkan org? tapi yg pasti mereka ingin pergi dgn cara yg sungguh kurang sopan di mataku. Perlukah? Ku beranikan jua diriku untuk menyuarakan pendapatku. Bukan untuk membela sesiapa yg terlibat, tapi itu hakikat. Setiap benda yg dilakukan dgn niat yg betul, pasti elok juga ganjarannye. Kan? Jadi mereka pun buat ape yg aku katakan. Aku ok dgn itu. Skali benda lain timbul. Perlukah mengadu & bercakap mengenainye di tempat yg salah & waktu yg salah. What is wrong with the people nowadays?? Get a life I should say. Or should I say grow up and be matured? Every single human being in these world ada responsibilities. Every single person without living anyone behind. The difference is just is it tough and how strong can someone cope with it? hidup ni tak boleh dimanjakan sgt. Belajar idup susah. Tros terang la, I’ve gone through part of it and I’m beginning to learn even though it’s hard. Drops of tear were my best friend. Seriously. Macam org bodo je nangis. but then that’s the fact.
Some people said pulak, silence will kill you slowly. Coz you tend to keep things inside without letting it go. Tapi bagi aku pulak, lepaskan pada seorang yg dipercayai dan boleh bagi nasihat. Itu sahaja. Tak perlu membunuh diri kerana diri sendiri jugak. ‘dia cakap senang ah’..pasti ini ayat yg dilemparkan padaku.. tapi, to me. This is my opinion. Up to you guys nak cakap ape. This is me & I write what I think. :)

boredom strike.. yeah. guess what? i was so freaking excited dapat klua today. haha. wlaupon hanya ke Giant. need to settle some stuff there then shop! bodoh kan? sorry la. it's been few days since i last been outdoor. asyik terperap dalam office. haha. kalau klua pown, just sampai mamak & lepaks. transport takde. tapi today the bro bawak. so dari 2 item listed to be bought tros jadi 10 item. haha. then beli makan. eat! eat! dah lame tak makan nasi putih. well actually last two days dah makan nasi putih tapi saje nak lebeyh2. huhu. asyik makan nasi goreng la. nasi pattaya la. boring gak kan. ouh, and maggi. ppfft. ape ah akan. what else.. sleepy. mata damn berat dah ni. slept at 8? and woke up at 10.30. ish.. gantok dowh. and i'm so tired.

why tired? let me tell you something. it's hard to be a responsible leader. seriously. jadi responsible is like nothing to me. i mean it's not as easy as it might sound tapi being a leader or person in-charged is a tough thing to do. lagi mencabar bile people under you is older than you. aih. and if the person jenis yg slow and steady or tak biasa buat kerja. it's just so freaking tough la k. i takleh nak tegur2 sgt coz they're all like older than me gile banyak kan. then bile suro terhegeh2 buat kerja. the time they took to do one chores is equivelant to the time taken for me to do 2-3 chores. annoying huh? yes it is. so i ended up doing 2-3 things at one time. fair or not? it doesn't really matter anymore. all i know it needs to be done a.s.a.p.. then kene buat OT. fine with me. not to them. that's still ok. tapi they rest more than i do but yet gado lagi kata penat and gantok. then bile pagi kjot tak bangun. bile dah bangun, they'll take ages to bersiap and eat. then waktu kerja asyik mengadap phone. not to say you can't tapi pandai2 la. u nak keje siap cepat then priority u would be ur work. no longer ur life. sorry but it's the fact. i can't stand the complain when the fault comes from you ppl urself. true kan? boleh siap bergayot sedangkan kerja yg menanti is like melambak. then again aku jugak yg buat semua. dr awal sampai akhir. tak perhati diorg keje, sure ade je lacking sana sini. and tetap same aku jugak yg masalah. wasting time lagi. my bro ckp senang. aku bukan jenis kuat mengadu. slagi boleh aku handle, aku handle. but my patience has its limit.

finally something cheered me up this morning or shall i say someone.. :D ( dia.. thank you sekali lagi.. :) ) ahh..ku berjaya memujuk dirinya. muahaha. ended up talking on the phone dgn dia. sorry. hati tgh sarat dgn marah kan. so let go kat dia. sabar k. idup ni bnyk dugaan. u just have to face it whether u suke or tak, it's till happen as written by Him. ffuuh.. lotsa advice. handling with care. heh. lepas ckp then only tido. finally. tapi sekejap sangat dapat tido. unfair. :( tapi takpe2. dia ada. huhu.

okie2.. tu baru part yg pertama kot? heh. this story is only up to 2.45pm from 11pm the day before as in semalam la kan. haha. needs to get moving now. siren dah berbunyi. as if. dahpanggil pon batang idung tak nampak lagi. ish. kerja dah ah banyak. nasib ptg ni ada lagi pekerja2 diimport 'khas' akan dtg. hee.. :) suke2.. well me signing out for now k. daaaa.. ppfft..

time to menggatal ya'll.. heh. gila. nope. well this is what MAHA is all about-

the bro & the prime minister.. :) and the bodyguard.. *wink*

dpt only one.. yg lain can't.. ass-holic lah.. wait. i'll upload soon kay.. damn it to whom it may concern.. apsal2 i cant upload picture.. haih.. :/

My familia, my gene..

i hate them but i love them.. that just explains it all..=)

i was turned on last night.. enough said.. :) ( jgn pk BLUE! xske..) i dint get enough sleep this morning.. beeeecuuzz rush2 masa nak lari perlu dikejar. yes? dumb. i know i know.. :) i like it though.. heh. so up damn early.. at 9.30am. whaaat?? it s early considering that i shut my eyes at 5? got up at 7.30 sleep back.. yea.. the day before pun dint get enough sleep.. bleegghh.. zombie in the making heh? :p i'm bored.. stuck in the office.. seems that the office is my 2nd home.. tapi saya suke sbb saya tak perlu mengadap org kat umah and were asked to do things yg i malas gile nak buat.. (well, even the office takde tv, i can still watch movies online.. yipee..) save my money y'know.. heh. i'm tired.. work load.. heh. MAHA expo is coming.. i'll update abt that and i shall promote my stuff, aite? heh.. this is what blogs are for.. kan? kan? kan? ppfft..

im bored.. why?

1. org lain tido
2. im working my butt off sorg2 dpn pc
3. im lonely
4. memikir tentang tugas yg menanti
5. cant shopping :)
6. mengidam benda yg tak dapat or shall i say belum dapat & it pisses me off? :)
7. lapar
8. credit low.. ( nak gayot dgn dia..:( )
9. sbb saya penat
10. takleh tido

dumb reasons. heh. this is what bored ppl do & also tired ppl do.. :) just like me..

can't wait to sleep. the blanky is waiting coz the room is freaking cold.. (u might say off la the air-cond, fool..) i would say neva!~ sbb its nice to cuddle2 dlm slimut.. (sambil tu dalam hati & otak pk yg satu.. muahaha.. notty.. :p sape mengajar ni ha thira???? :) )

p/s: dia.. thank you taw? i suke.. heh. we shall do more often la.. end of this month perhaps? :)kite tggu & see taw? huhu..

aku ckup menyampah utk menunggu.. damn serious..im at work.expecting this one aunty coming to send some stuff la..my bro told me she's coming at 3.aku dgn bangang tggu la si dia kat bwh sbb malas nak trun naik mcm org gila kan.then 330 the brother called ckp she's coming at 4-ish..i mean wtf? sorry.. it's FISH btw.. haha..anyway, yea..now its 445 and btg idung dia pun aku tak nampak..or tak payah btg idung ah, bunyi kete dia pun aku tak dgr..and again menci menunggu sbb kerja yg blh aku lakukan terhad..ahh..janji lain, yg dibuat lain..haih..

menunggu dan trus menunggu.. bkn skali 2 aku perlu menunggu.. sana sini aku pergi perlu menunggu.. haih.. masa itu emas ah.. zaman skola dulu.. pergghh.. the sister always, i repeat ALWAYS buat aku tggu dia like some dungu..bile ditolak tambah bahagi darab & segala math equation yg ada, masa aku bnyk terbazir kerana dia..tapi........bile dia yg perlu menunggu dia punye membebel, tak tahan beb aku nak dgr.. huhu.. bygkan tggu 5mnt pown dah kecoh dowh.. bebal.. menci.. ape nak jd dgn dunia ni ha??? haih.. kite jgk yg kene walaupun bkn salah kite..

aku masih menunggu bnyk perkara.. bagai menunggu bulan jatuh ke riba.. ecehh.. haha.. tapi itu la hakikatnye.. dah tak leh diubah..haha..

p/s: bagi mereka yg suke buat org tertunggu2, insaflah.. bagi si penunggu(bkn hantu ye) bersabarlah walau hati sakit gile bab*.. heh.. tak perlu lah ku gunakan ayat2 sebegitu..learn to be patient coz patience is a great virtue..

When I thought they are my everything.. I was wrong..
When I thought they are my source of happiness.. I was wrong again..
When I thought I can rely on them.. I was actually neglected..
When I thought they come first before others.. I was again wrong..
When I thought they are my reasons to be strong.. They’re actually not..
When I thought I can always turn to them.. I actually can’t..
When I thought they can give some lights into my world when others gone.. They actually moved on..
They’re only there when I’m really in need of them..

p/s: is that a good thing ah? lu pikirlah sendiri! heh.. :)

I can’t blame myself. That’s a freaking fact. Not that I dun want to but it’s just I can’t. I can’t resist myself from being so pissed and annoyed and disappointed and stressed. All mixed in one. I have to find out something. But how? Bile pikir2 balik, it all came back from one reason. Atas dasar satu sebab je. Bengang kan? Tadi aku dah ternampak ‘sesuatu’ or shall I say mmg aku sendiri yg gatal tgn utk klik pada link tu? Aku tak pasti. Satu yg pasti, I SAW IT. Argghh.. damn bengang seyh. What more can I say? Should I burn myself into jealousy? Yes? No? Yes? Uhuh uhuh.. Hmm.. tuhan maha mengetahui.. there’s nothing more that I can say? Kan? Fool-ness la.. mengapa? Rasa macam melukut di tepi gantang je.. (eyh? So random huh?) hahaha.. aku takkan lupa sampai aku mati.. I swear! :) can I swear? Yes2.. (dlm hati: kalau nak rasa penyepak dia, silakan thira.. :) ) hahaha..

Ni lah dia prangai buruk aku kalau nak tau.. (well part of it la kan..) I can’t just forgive & forget & stop talking about it.. susah.. yes, I can forgive.. tapi utk melupakan? It ain’t easy.. and i can’t stop talking abt it sebab aku sentiasa mengenangkannya.. salahkah? :)

Benarkah bile mengenangkan sesuatu seolah2 mengenangkan nasib & seolah2 kite tak percaya dgn ketentuan tuhan? Aku tak pasti.. tapi telah pun diriku ini dinasihati utk live life to the fullest.. jgn dipikirkan sgt ape yg dah terjadi kerna stiap ape yg terjadi ada hikmahnye.. yg pasti one should be stronger to face the world ahead of them.. but how strong is strong? And how strong can someone be? U tell me.. setiap manusia ada pendapat & pendirian masing2.. biarlah ianya menjadi pegangan masing2.. :)

Janji kita enjoy!!~ utk kita2 aje.. mcm2 ada.. :) bleeehhh.. outta words, baby.. ppffftt.. selamat tinggal..

I need my beauty sleep now.. haven’t slept for 24hours now.. need to do perkara wajib dulu.. hehehe.. tak sabar.. (think what u wanna think..) :) I’m shutting myself down now..

p/s: cik nurul ngokngek, pinjam blog name kay.. muahaha..

Ada masalah dgn itu? Look.. IF U GREET ME NICELY, I’LL TREAT YOU EVEN BETTER.. tapi bile org dah ‘kacau’ aku dgn cara yg ckup murah.. balasannye juga harus setimpal.. aku tak kejam cume perlu mengingatkan.. aku tak perlukan publisiti murahan.. seriously? Tapi thanks la for doing it and for free pulak tu? Haha..

Ni gi tgk org tak tau malu nih.. http://profile.friendster.com/8830968 same je prangai ngan gf dia.. sape yg penah kenal aku, mesti tau story di belakang kegeraman aku.. :)

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• Posted 07/31/2008 1:30 pm
• die bkn msuk ipt...die msuk frm 6...n by the way...diz fat girl...she did cheat on mel with her so coled camp...n i want my money back...if im gona come 2 her place i'll make sure she pay my money back...diz fat girl uses the camp money 4 her topup...

Aku tak heran sket pown u call me fat ke ugly ke, coz I’m still the god’s creation with brains that function well unlike yours.. :) but what’s irritating me is abt the money.. so yeah.. plz clean the mess that you’ve made..

p/s: how can it be my ‘so called camp’ when I was NOT the one who came out with that stupid idea? Benda 2thn sudah ah.. get over it.. 

sgt gembira.. i got to edit it at home.. sounds so bodoh.. but takpelah.. :)

i will make myself sound stupid here but why is this freaking blog 'treat' me badly?? haha.. i know. dumb. but there's a reason. i cant edit my fonts. why? sbb tu previous post aku bosan.. satu warna je.. :( perlukah aku membodohkan diriku disini? haha.. but yeah.. that's my problem.. font satu kaler satu saiz.. why? mengapa? dan kenapa perlu begini? sedangkan ayat2ku ada perubahan warna dan saiz tapi i cant edit.. menci!~ sila tlg aku ye.. bley?

Tanpamu akulah yang rindu
Tanpa dirimu
Hilanglah manjaku
Kasihmu kata naluriku
Cintamu hanya dihatiku

Izinkan aku selami hatimu
Izinkan aku bisikkan cintaku
Janjiku pada kau yang satu
Diriku hanyalah untukmu

Chorus:
Engkaulah yang satu
Pujaan hatiku
Sucinya cintaku padamu
Sayangku
hanya kau yang satu
Kasih dan rinduku...
milikmu.

Huhu.. takde niat pown nak jiwang2 karat.. tapi bile someone dedicate this song kat aku, aku jadi terkedu.. and at that very moment I feel so much loved.. I’ve never heard of this song before.. sumpah!~ haha.. lagu ni hit masa aku blom pown setahun.. hua3x.. tapi untuk dia.. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.. :)

p/s: aku tak penah jiwang weyh! Trust me.. haha..

In our lives, apologies are uno of the words that we often used dlm idup seharian kite.. btol tak? Sorry.. maaf.. ampun.. kdg2 perkataan tu terkeluar dgn sendirinye bile scara tak sengaja membuat silap atau terlanggar org atau terkasar bhs dsb.. bile perkara besar telah terjadi yg membuatkan kite rasa bersalah atau telah melakukan kesalahan maaf juga yg dipohon.. hari raya pun mesti tak lekang dr mulut org dr mengungkapkan kata- maaf zahir dan batin.. sepuluh jari memohon kemaafan dan etc etc.. ikhlas ke kdg2 kite mintak maaf tu? Atau sekadar pelengkap kpd budi bahasa budaya kita? Hahaha.. kpd si pemaaf pula.. kadang2 terpikir.. cukup ke skadar meminta maaf? Mmg sbg umat islam memaafkan org adalah perkara wajib.. nanti ada plak kata sedangkan nabi ampunkan umatnye inikan kite manusia bese yg tak pernah lari dr melakukan kesilapan.. but when you come to think of it? Apologies and forgiveness are not the solution to our mistakes.. (for certain mistakes la..) kalau sekadar meminta maaf tanpa keikhlasan untuk ape walaupun ianye mampu menjaga hati seseorg? Dan untuk ape meminta maaf dgn keikhlasan tapi tak menjadikannya sbg pengajaran utk tidak mengulangi kesilapan yg same? Renung2kanlah bersama aku weyh.. bukan niat nak mengarut.. aku jugak lalui benda yg same.. AKU CUBA ‘MEMBETULI’ DIRI JUA.. aku mudah memaafkan dan juga meminta maaf tapi tidak pd semua org.. sbb hati aku keras.. wahaha.. selambe bombe je mengaku kan? Wahaha.. dan…. Pantang aku bile org dah mintak maaf tapi buat balik.. macam pompuan F dgn laki S.. dia punye mintak maaf punyelah banyak kali sehingga aku tak larat nak tadah tinge dgr benda yg same.. so aku pon maafkan setelah dipertimbangkan.. tapi akhirnya korang buat balik.. dan aku dah pon berpesan, aku tak perlukan maaf dari kalian.. :) dan pada saat ini aku masih menanti ‘mereka-mereka’ untuk memohon maaf dariku.. sorry pun jadik ah..tapi aku tak rasa sebarang kata maaf akan lahir dari mulut mereka kerna ku ckup knal dgn mereka.. and to them also aku nak dgr kata2 maaf sbb sejak 18thn aku idup, sekali pun tak pernah u all lafazkan padaku.. atas alasan ape aku sendiri tidak tau..

p/s: sorry u guys.. I mmg disappointed gile dgn korang.. this entry bukan nak kenekan sape2 tapi utk dri I sendiri jgk and a reminder to u ppl.. how I wish.. hmm.. :(

kiss me & you'll see stars..
love me & i'll give them to you..

could do things my way all the time
doesn’t need to go through rough times
could make them proud
am always right
can always be happy
have them all
could turn back time
can be understood
am not me
am not here
was someone else
were somewhere else

mood: mood-less
feeling: feeling-less
emotion: emotion-less

bebal gile rasa masa ni.. tak tertanggung.. :( terpaksa gak ah kan lalui.. it’s always been easier to say it rather than doing it.. :)